anosmia

i don't have a sense of smell so here's a video about it. it's not great but there are definitely things in this

that i recognise. i can't lie, there are times, mostly at work when no sense of smell is a great advantage

if something's really stinky while others flee i can usually feel it in my eyes!

my sense of smell isn't totally absent but it's so truncated that if it pings i usually have to ask someone what i'm smelling. what this video doesn't address is the lack of language for smell. equally tho if you can pin someone down who will try to describe smell to you it is like drifiting off into some sort of poetry.

i am not like some of these people who lost their smell suddenly. i have no memories of smell, no means of dreaming about it, what i don't love is the routine dismissal of its lack, as if smell is somehow a minor scent. or people who think it's funny. i would like to be able to have a conversation with a dog or some other scent based animal to hear what their world feels like!

which is my way of saying stop a moment and, quite literally, smell the roses. i had a recent eye scare where there was a possibility of losing vision in one eye. i didn't love it but in the mean time i'm loving depth perception. it's the small things! lol