barthes

then i decided that this disorder and this dilemma, revealed by my desire to write on Photography, corresponded to a discomfort i had always suffered from: the uneasiness of being a subject torn between two languages, one expressive, the other critical; and at the heart of this critical language, between several discourses, those of sociology, of semiology, and of psychoanalysis - but that, by ultimate dissatisfaction with all of them, i was bearing witness to the only sure thing that was in me (however naive it might be) : a desperate resistance to any reductive system

from lucida camera (trans Richard Howard)